An Open Letter to the Man Who Sexually Groomed Me: Everything my teenage heart couldn’t articulate and my adult-self now can.

I was recently advised by my spiritual director to write a letter to the man who groomed me. What I ultimately wrote was something that I did not foresee. I had never realized, or perhaps let myself realize, how much my teenage self admired and loved the man who ultimately used me for his ownContinue reading “An Open Letter to the Man Who Sexually Groomed Me: Everything my teenage heart couldn’t articulate and my adult-self now can.”

To the girl who had her first sexual experience at 12: He cried with you.

“Do you have any experience?… sexual experience?” I’ll never forget the night I was asked this by a man whose attention I had become emotionally dependent on over the course of the year prior. Not only was this question inappropriate for a middle aged man to be asking a teenage girl, but for me, theContinue reading “To the girl who had her first sexual experience at 12: He cried with you.”

Breaking Attachment From Your Abuser

“Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37 I struggled for a long time to accept the fact that I had developed feelings of emotional attachment to a man who clearly did not have my good or wellbeing in mind. While I was conscious of theContinue reading “Breaking Attachment From Your Abuser”

Abortion and Sexual Abuse: How the Pro-Life Movement helped me come forward

While I have always identified as being “pro-life,” I struggled with this belief silently for years. I logically understood and could clearly see that abortion ends a human life (all we have to do is open a biology text book to figure that one out), but I found the distressed plea of a mother whoContinue reading “Abortion and Sexual Abuse: How the Pro-Life Movement helped me come forward”

On the Day We Hoped We’d See Your Face, We Remember You

This coming Thursday, November 5, 2020 was the due date for the child we lost, Claire Francis Buzza. I can’t help but mourn that this day is lot different than I anticipated it would be when we found out Claire was with us. In the 7 months it’s been since the day we faced ourContinue reading “On the Day We Hoped We’d See Your Face, We Remember You”

Anti-Depressants, Two-Buck Chuck, and Facebook Messenger: Searching for the Living Among the Dead

Freshmen year of college is perhaps one of the most exciting times of life. It’s a time of new experiences, friendships, and a completely new way of life. Many are also living away from their parents for the first time and are experiencing a freedom they’ve never known. But along with this newness, comes aContinue reading “Anti-Depressants, Two-Buck Chuck, and Facebook Messenger: Searching for the Living Among the Dead”

“Our Hearts Were Made for Each Other”

A few years ago, a good friend of mine and I were sitting in a coffee shop hashing out our grievances of the opposite sex, (you know typical girl stuff). During the course of our conversation we landed on the topic of attraction. Both of us admitted we had been confounded as to why weContinue reading ““Our Hearts Were Made for Each Other””

“Remember Who You Are”/Identity and Sexual Abuse

What we believe about ourselves affects every aspect of our life and especially our relationships. It affects how we communicate with the rest of the world and also how we hear what’s being said to us. Sometimes, these beliefs become so deeply buried within us, we forget they are even there. In some ways, theContinue reading ““Remember Who You Are”/Identity and Sexual Abuse”

To The Teacher Who Asked Me If I Was Being Sexually Harassed: Thank You.

It was a crisp spring day in the Central Valley of California. We had just finished an all school Mass at my Catholic high school when one of my teachers asked to speak with me privately. Heart racing, palms sweating (much like Eminem) I was unnecessarily worried that I was about to be suspended asContinue reading “To The Teacher Who Asked Me If I Was Being Sexually Harassed: Thank You.”

The Year My Birthday Fell On Divine Mercy Sunday

Pope Francis declared 2016 a jubilee year for the Church known as “The Year of Mercy.” For me, this was indeed a year of great mercy. It was in this year I came forward about being sexually abused in my hometown parish. It was the year I came to really know the person of Christ.Continue reading “The Year My Birthday Fell On Divine Mercy Sunday”